January 9, 2015
"A man's heart deviseth his way: but the Lord directeth his steps." Proverbs 16:9
This morning when the alarm rang at 5:ooam, I dragged myself out of bed convincing my body and mind to leave my comfy and warm bed. I always find it most challenging to get out of bed on cold days. But this morning, I was on a mission. I had to get up and get going on certain activities so that I could complete them before my son woke up. The last two days, he slept until 6:00am and 6:30am, so I was banking on him repeating that pattern.
I sat down in front of my Bible for some quiet time, opened it up to the chapter that I was about to read and
BAM! I heard his cry over the monitor. I went upstairs and sure enough, he was awake and eagerly awaiting someone to come take him out of his crib. There goes my quiet time! I thought to myself. I gave him his breakfast hoping he'd settle a bit and rest some more. Nope...he was wide awake and ready to play. I first tried to finish my quiet time with him in my lap. I gave him a book to keep him occupied. My idea didn't work. I wondered if I'd be able to finish my quiet time this morning.
Then, I got another thought. I decided to bring his toys and books, set them on the floor close to me to see if he'd entertain himself. Thankfully, he was able to keep himself busy while I completed my quiet time.
Isn't that how life is though? We make plans, but God orders our footsteps. How incredibly frustrating that can be. I am a planner. I like to know what to expect. When God comes in and interrupts my plans, it makes me a bit uneasy. In addition to being a planner, I am also a completer. I like to complete tasks. When I don't I feel unaccomplished. So when I make plans, I want to get them done. Though sometimes I do eventually complete them, there are other times I do not complete them. Sometimes God has other plans for us. I've been in these situations before. In the beginning, they are very challenging for me. I've fought them because I refuse to let go of my plans. But that only makes me more frustrated. There are times when I just throw up my hands and say, "Okay, God! What do you want me to do?" I have learned that no matter how frustrated I may feel in the beginning, and how resistant I can be, when I humble myself to God, and go along with what He has for me. Not only do I feel peace, but I always seem to realize that His path for my footsteps in the situation is so much more than what I planned. Working away from my son 8 hours a day is tough. So being able to do my morning with him near is such a delight to my heart. Not only that, but I am able to model for him, what it looks like to spend a little time in God's word each morning.